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I find myself once again in a deep depression.  I've been struggling with what I'm sure is PTSD for several months. Compounding it this week has been the worse mass shooting in American history occurring just 30 miles away in Orlando.

So I've caught the blues again...pretty severe this time.  I'm looking for a counselor, this time I want to try to find someone with a public safety background and PTSD expertise.

In the meantime, I recognize I need to

• Take care of myself physically. Stop the drinking. Get a good night's sleep-every night; regular exercise.
• Let go of negative thoughts
• Let go of feeling betrayed, victimized or otherwise oppressed.....even if I am. The stress is not worth it.
• Journal  
• Organize-get back into using the chore schedule.  
• Be with people.  Don't isolate...take advantage of opportunities to be with people who care about me.
• Give God a chance.....all I mean here is don't wash hands of God....that's it.  Nothing else right now.